wHeRe DrEaMs nEvEr CoMe tRuE

new beginning

2010-10-31T16:45:00.001+08:00

I WONT BE EMO NOW COZ I HAVE AYU :D <3

sunday

2010-01-03T11:21:00.003+08:00

yesterday night was hell.
the whole night i was dreaming of.. her.
i can remember everything so clearly.
everything was as normal.
dreams are dreams.
they never come true.
its amazing how many dreams a night can have.

i have to forget. because somebody has already forgotten.

tuesday

2009-12-29T23:26:00.002+08:00

as i went thru my cupboard. looking for a shirt to change into.

i saw the t shirt that she drew for me. she had one too. but we had never wore it together before.

i took out the t shirt and stoned there for a while.

all the <3>

hais. can all forget it.

i guess she's jus waiting for me to say it.

cos she wouldnt want to be the one to dump me.

but hey. thanks. u noe how i feel right now?

great. have fun

tuesday

2009-12-29T00:46:00.003+08:00

i made myself happy. with what i heard from her yesterday.

i thought things were going to return back to normal.

but seems like it was as simple as i thought.

hopefully she fell asleep. and she didn't saw my msn. thats why she didn't reply me.

or she's jus bathing. im thinking too much. hais.

or maybe... im fat hoping that she will come back to me.. hais.

i really want her back by my side...

in these 4 days, i've lost my appetite for anything.. and i've lost 2kg.

i wish she was here.. :(

i dont wanna do this anymore..

still hoping for a miracle..

hais.

iloveyou...

saturday

2009-12-26T16:29:00.003+08:00

now that i know it was me who cause you to change, what exactly did i do?

what could be so devastating that made u gave up all the times we spend for the past almost 2 years? im just dying to find out.

i thought you knew how much pain i was suffering.

i thought you cared about me.

just when i thought we were going to last.

i feel like killing myself right now. i cant take anymore of this.

what am i supposed to do now?

what is this now?

what are we?

nothing?

i prayed for 2 days. hoping you would come back. but things arent looking good now.

i really wish we could talk it out... i've lost everything. my soul, my heart. even my appetite. im looking down on the floor wherever i went.

can you pls... tell me? i beg you...

friday. 25th december. 2009.

2009-12-25T13:30:00.000+08:00

1 years 8 months 22 days. the clock has stopped.

moments after the clock struck 12, christmas has arrived. and so did the end.

i gave up. she won. speaking of which, when did i ever win? i was always the one giving in. now it backfired. cant blame her in anyways. its all in my part. itp brought the distance further and further away. and soon the reception was lost.

its amazing how much things could change within 24 hours. or maybe it was longer before, but she didn't show any signs. although i can feel it, i kept lying to myself just to make myself fall asleep. actually it's been one whole week. ever since she had that unlimited sms thing, there were things wrong. yesterday night i walked her home, everything was as per normal. but i couldn't feel her there anymore.

i've got so much things to say, if only i could just attach my heart into this post, then u can see entirely how i feel.

bought a xmas present for her last week, preparing to give it to her. its the first time giving something to her was that difficult. i finally did it after so many persuasion to give me a minute. thought she would like it. but im not so sure now.

i've learnt a lot this 1 year and 8 months. i've learnt that "forever" doesnt really mean forever. its all lies. which broke my heart. the scar will be there forever. i will never forget.

looking at my wallpaper on my phone just now, decided to have a change. looked through the default wallpapers and nothing interested me. so on the train, i give my photo library a look. i couldn't bear to see it at all. 90% of the photos has her in the meaning of it. as i scrolled slowly down, tears start to build up. i had a glance of what we have been through the past year. her birthday, valentine's day, even some random shots of her wearing formal in school was also inside. im wrecked. i couldn't pick any of them. i just couldn't. all the memories we had, all there, and now, they have become memories. memories that i shall never forget. the day we wore until so nice to go to east coast park was unforgettable. and the photo album for her birthday present is probably just junk to her now. i was even thinking about continuing the album. looks like i can forget it already.

the fond memories that we had. the first lunch with her mum. the first dinner with my mum. the hugs we had when she didn't wanna go to work. and the morning that started everything. 03/04/08. all these, and many more, will not be erased from my mind, until the day i die. it hurts when i have to fall so hard on my first time in love. i've realised how much pain people have suffered. all the time i spend tell her how much i love her. its all being thrown into the bin.

the way we talked on the phone every night. even though there's nothing much to talk about, it was fun to talk about absolutely nothing at all. now everynight i will have to pretend to call myself and go to sleep. i cant sleep without giving her a call.

for once i wish she would know how i feel. being a boyfriend whose girlfriend is at some other guy's house taking a nap. so many other things. i feel i had no control over my girlfriend at all. she knows that we r breaking apart, but why is it that she doesn't look like she gives a damn? nobody will know how bad that feels. behaves everything like normal, but in reality, nothing is normal. its too late now i guess..

as im typing, im hoping that things will turn around. i still dont wanna lose her.. :( my worst nightmare has come true. hais.

im really tired. tired of trying all i can this entire week. there's so much more for me to say. but i need some sleep. i'll continue tommorrow.

wishinguponastar,makeusbackthewayweare.

我会学着放弃你 , 是因为我太爱你

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25 december 2009

2009-12-25T11:06:00.009+08:00

(seems like cannot continue from the previous post, post a new one to continue)

today its christmas. i woke up with wet pillows and blurry eyes. i wish i could just sleep forever, now that she's gone. i had no aim to wake up in the morning for. usually i will wake up thinking of her and then jump out of bed happily. but its no longer the same anymore.
my plans for next week is useless now. had actually wanted to accompany her after her work everyday. now looks like its not my job anymore.
i could still vividly remember the way she treated me on the night of christmas eve. my presence to her was extra. which made her turn into bad mood. i still dont know why im still so concerned over her. even till now. so i just left, seeing that she will be happier with him.

during my sleep yesterday, i was thinking of so many things. all the times we spend together. i cant believe that they are just gone like that. what a nice way to end this thing. i will always miss the time we spend together. i will remember the first moment that my feelings came out was her lying on my shoulder while doing our mathematics project in 2007/08. i still remember jan was our last member. but at that time where was he? haha.. memorable indeed.
this blog was started solely for the reason for expressing my feeling for her. on the janauary of 2008. the days during then was the direct opposite of what im suffering today. i feel so much more pain than then. if just looking the the month, this blog is 2 years old already. looks like the whole journey ended here.
i left yesterday night because i want her to have a happy christmas. i dont want her to be so down because of me. so i took the pain and walked away. just hoping to bring a smile to her face. without me around, she will definitely be happier.

there's one thing i really want to know. why is she behaving this way? i hope one day she will tell me. she keeps pretending nothing is wrong, it makes me very fished up. maybe i did somthing wrong. or maybe her feeling for me jus faded.
santa claus didn't visit me this christmas. i didn't get anything good. all i get is this suffocating feeling. the way she pretended, was choking. next time she wans to do it, she should just say it to the face and stop avoiding.
im still thinking about the last kiss we had. was it even a kiss? it was only 24 hours ago. it was all fake? the way she held my hand. was it also fake? now i don't know whats real anymore. i can't believe they were all lies. i didn't know she was such a good heart breaker. i thought she was afraid i was the one letting her go. but it turned out to be the other way.

im jus a geek. who studies and stays in front of my laptop everyday. how can be compared? probably im no longer the kind of guy that she is interested in.
memories just kept flashing in my mind. i dare not to even go out of my room. tears might just suddenly burst out from my eyes. if i go out, i will see the pig that i've caught for her. and what happen to the times we spend trying to catch dolls that she liked. looks like she jus found someone better.
so what am i supposed to do with all the pictures of me and her in my picture folder? im looking at the picture of the nicest flowers i bought for her. together with 3 rochers. and the only time we wore a couple tee. looks like there wont be a second time. hey look, its her hamsters. wonder how they're doing. i rmb the time when im so afraid of them. haha..
the sweet sweet love i will never forget. the first "love" message she sent me. i remember it clearly i was in toapayoh library doing project with yu and khee. and this is the message : "Loves <3".>all the iloveyou you said to me. i will keep them in my heart. no one has ever loved me so much before. looks like now the special one for me has left me. i've lost my directions. where do i go next? i wish she was still here. now im broken into pieces. normally i wont give up so easily. but the way she treat me like invisible is too hurting for me to handle. now you wanna be free, and i'll let you fly. you'll always be a part of me. you'll always be my baby. even though in ur heart its not at all. just hoping someday you will come back. :(

i miss the times where u would call me names. from assdumb to all kind of names that you think suited me. i will miss the times where u call me bibi~ bibi~. it makes me so happy. all the touching moments i have had with you. seemed all so far away. the headset you bought for me, everytime i use it, i will remember the days we had. the psp you got for me, i will always rmb the amount of trouble we spent trying to settle that situation.

been practicing my guitar. learning the song an jing. hoping someday i can sing it to you. its not possible now. as i play the song. jus looking at the lyrics makes me cry. hais. now totally no mood for anything. pls come back... :'(

yesterday night i walked home alone. took small steps. no point going fast. she's not going to be online. stared up into the night sky. there were stars. reminded me of the promise that one night, she will be with me lying on the ground looking at the sky. it never did happen. promises are jus meant to be broken. maybe this kind of happiness is just not meant for me.

i usually did not have any control. now when i tried to take control, everything get screwed. i dont know. but ever since you have been with him, you've changed. who noes what he fed u with. i dont know who u r anymore. i miss the old you . hais.

take my hand never let go. but u let go-ed.

hais. she's gone. im left with my bone.

yin wei wo tai ai ni..

wednesday

2009-12-23T22:56:00.003+08:00

im too frikking soft. now all i can do is jus watch.

hais.

the love is so fragile.

one small thing and it will break.

thats why i cant do anything.

if i stop u, ... i noe what will happen. i dun wan that to happen.

hais.

i dont know what to do.

i just hope u could put urself in my shoes.

i tot u knew how i feel.

cos the same thing happen to u. and i stopped.

now things have taken a change.

now who cares?

i feel frikking f-ed up right now.

hais.

i dunno what i should do.. :(

whathappentothatlovewehadonninthaugusttwoohohnine? :'(

monday

2009-12-21T07:46:00.006+08:00

nothing was here.

sunday

2009-12-20T22:32:00.001+08:00

ming tian hui gen hao :)

sunday

2009-12-20T11:45:00.002+08:00

nothing was here

wednesday

2009-12-16T15:25:00.003+08:00

today darling pang gang le dint sms me anymore.. hais.. idk wad happen. darling bad mood. or maybe its not?

i cant concentrate at all. cant do work
so many thoughts going thru my mind.
is she on the way home? or...
hais i so no mood now. at work.
idk wad happen.
i jus wanna noe.
wad should i do?

hais.

monday

2009-11-30T23:08:00.001+08:00

idk.

friday

2009-11-28T01:31:00.003+08:00

today holiday. went out see movie with kheelly and of cos darling. see the paranomal activities. the movie is like.. not movie liddat one. the camera keep shaking. like a realife video cam. make ppl v giddy. lol.

after that went to catch pig! caught a big fat pig for only $2. darling cnt keep at her hse so i have to bring home >.<

on the way home, my nose suddenly drip blood. a lot sia. i try and wipe and then all my hand is blood.. zzz... so paiseh sia on the bus. luckily nv kena the big fat pig.

dunno wads wrong with me today. so confused. am i dying?
im jus fking tired.

<3

wednesday

2009-11-25T23:01:00.003+08:00

the thought came back when i thought it was gone.
the brain turns down everything and focus on that
will my mum's dream come true?
idk how.

< 3

wednesday

2009-11-18T22:06:00.001+08:00

darling today say i can play game! hoorray!
today is a happy day!

loves<3

tuesday

2009-11-17T22:14:00.001+08:00

tuesday! tml will be able to see darling! darling very excited. wish she was this excited everyday >.< hahaha..

tml duno going where eat. tml then tink. haha.. jus wan darling to be smiling.. always... :)

loves<3

friday

2009-11-13T23:49:00.002+08:00

life is jus so unfair isnt it.

frikking tiredd today. fainted on the mrt. can sms halfway then faint de. omg..
hais. sian..

<3

thursday

2009-11-12T22:44:00.001+08:00

omg.. after 4 days already. im still worried sick! what to do! omg!! all my fault la! every day thinking of it! chui le... i going disappoint my parents.. ahhhh.. wad should i do >.<

tml meeting darling~ yay~ must make her happy! :D

monday

2009-11-09T19:34:00.002+08:00

the monday blues. terrible. felt sick at the beginning of work.

it has been 2 weeks and 1 day already. but then... still so sad.. hais.

dk how la. hope next week wont be the same.

omg. i feel so... right now. >.< im afraid something might happen! AHHHHHHHHHH! HOW!!! OMGGGGGGGG. pls dun happen ! plsssssss! i will die de! sob sob.. :(

<3

thursday

2009-11-05T20:31:00.002+08:00

darling still cannot tahan the working life. make me so no mood. hais.. why cant everybody be the same company. then wont so sian ma. then must lidis make deardear so stress. zzz. i dunno how le la.

tml will be friday. its friday number 2 already. time pass so fast. once can keep doing work, time just PEEEEEEWWWW~ fly pass. lols.

nothing else to say.
love<3

saturday

2009-10-31T21:52:00.003+08:00

today and yesterday are 2 crazy days. so many f-ed up things happen. i dun wish to mention cos it jus kills the mood.

my darling has been very down lately.. becos of the stupid ITP! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. hais. cheer up darling! its only ITP! must slowly get used to working life. cos next time u will working and i will be at home cleaning house. muhahahhaha =x

hope darling's mood will change tml.. >.< i duwan see darling liddis.. i feel so helpless.. i hope can really help darling in her work!! :( im trying my best!

tomolo darling will be coming my hse for exercise! hope she turns up early! :D

loves<3

thursday

2009-10-29T21:06:00.002+08:00

waaa. today reach home my com cnt on again. shake it for a few times before it guai guai boot up. zzz. lao le.. going to die soon.

windows 7 looks cooler, but not that efficient as xp. wasnt wad i expected. oh wells~ :D

today went playing badminton with my supervisors. lol. yah. a bit weird but overall still ok. get to socialise with them. ITP is must make friends~ then got A! =x hehe.

misses my darling <3

tuesday

2009-10-27T22:35:00.002+08:00

today 2nd day at work! wa kena.. the terms and conditions say cannot listen to mp3 or radio and cnt use electronic devices. sucks sia... how to do programming without music. can die sia. 4 more months nia. TAHAN!

yay! today change my laptop to windows 7 le finally! after long consideration. hahha.. formatted the super slow C drive. byebye XP! :D

today darling happy le! yay~ now im happy! :D

loves her deep deep <3

sunday

2009-10-25T11:16:00.002+08:00

omg. jus a few hours ago. i had the craziest and most relisitic dream ever.

i dreamed about tml. which is my first day at work. i was supposed to be early. i reached there early. then i went around looking at the place. then suddenly, i was at chinese garden! wTH!. then i got stun, i didnt know why i was there and the time was almost up. dam scared becus the first day of work late is no good. then i chiong to the nearest mrt station. which turned out to be outram park. zzz. this is so crazy. after that hor before i enter outram park, i appear in a macdonald. and i ordered 1 double cheeseburger and 1 medium coke. can u believe it?! then after that i tink i woke up.

can u believe it?! everything looks so real. to me. dam freaky! lucky i woke up and noe its fake.. woah.. cannot be late tml.. >.<

saturday

2009-10-24T23:34:00.001+08:00

wa today is a bad day.
stupid slippers. make me so malu~~!!! >.<
argh! angry!

2 more days work.. tml dunno go where.. planning to go running.. but then.. must see how lor..

<3

friday

2009-10-24T01:19:00.002+08:00

almost finishing on Case Management X! WOOHOO! gonna get pay very soon! hope get a lot of pay raise! hahaha.. then can spend money on darling~

tml darling working again...zz..yah.

nvm.

3 more days jiu work le! hope can get used to working in an IT field. hope i dun have to wear formal for 4 months! OMG! crazy! and save money for darling's laptop too :D

im tired.. wanna rest. but the boss keep giving me more work.!! ahhhh. 2 more days.. hope can wake up at 6.30! omg..

thelove...<3

tuesday

2009-10-20T23:12:00.002+08:00

die liao lor. darling getting scolding because of me. all my fault. im so dumb. darling told me before..? but i forgot about it? her mummy jus called and i jus talk. how would i noe. zzzzz. im fucked up liao lor. all my fault. hais.

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dun be angry... :'(

Friday

2009-10-16T16:30:00.001+08:00

Darling so unhappy today. Sobs. Dunno wad happen also. Hais.

No mood now.

wednesday

2009-10-15T01:40:00.000+08:00

got things to say. but too lazy to say. lols. today is a headache day.

end.

sunday

2009-10-12T02:08:00.002+08:00

sb fed up with the server. compile and upload le still show error. stupid la. waste my time. ming ming jiu dun have problems de. haiya. dun wan say le. tml wake up then fan about it.

tml still nid go sku study. wth... really not in the mood for studying. now is HOLIDAY LEH! zzz. tink already sian half. hais.

nth much to say..

saturday

2009-10-10T11:18:00.002+08:00

my laptop died again about an hour ago. i keep trying to revive it and then finally its ok. i did CPR on it. hahaha..my laptop is in bad condition right now. anytime might die. so take care my laptop. :(

today went to find deardear working. wa today so many ppl go find her sia. she happy. dunno next week will anot.. sians.

ilovemydarlingsomuchies~ <3

friday

2009-10-09T15:36:00.002+08:00

!!! my laptop gave me a total scare! by dying this morning! omg! woke up and found out that my laptop couldnt boot! omg! keep beeping! and then found out its my display adapter spoil! omg... then i try all the things i can. then i went to remove the RAM and boot. still cannot. but when i put back the RAM in. it worked! omg! my laptop is sick! and its dying! i dont tink it can take anymore blow. >.< after today i shut down, it might not boot up again.

ytd night went to eat supper with the harbintes and the guys. went to geylang! omg. yea. geylang. hahahaha.. first time wor. but we went there eat only. nothing much =p
today going for bbq. hope can tahan overnight >.<

loves<3

tuesday

2009-10-07T02:37:00.002+08:00

post 300! wow..

today went K ge with popular darling demand. lols. darling can sing so well~ darling can sing so many songs.. lols.

now i noe why i dun sing much. cos english songs now are not easy to sing. they are unlike chinese songs which are easier to sing. haha.. english song is for dancing~~ :D but too bad theres not Dance-Box. hahahaah.

going to sleep now.. ulcers getting bigger if i dun sleep soon..

loves<3

sunday

2009-10-04T22:11:00.003+08:00

woots. today went for a super nice dinner at eatzi~ mmm.my favourite. jack's place~ :D treat my family to this dinner. only a part of it. hahaha.. not v cheap ohh. i pay $50. the rest my papa pay >.<

first time earn money. so must share the joy with everyone :D
gave my papa and mama money ~ mmm. wo zhang da le~ wo hui zhuan qian le ^ ^

haha. now my desktop is in windows 7. so COOL! but a bit laggy only. hahaha. gonna try it on my laptop soon~

long time no go running. i tink gonna fail my napfa >.<

misses <3

saturday

2009-10-04T02:13:00.002+08:00

finally! after days of trying, finally be able to start to install windows 7 onto my desktop! omg. tried so hard. almost giving up already.

first it was using dvd. FAIL.
then it was using external hard disk. FAIL.
then is thumbdrive. FAIL.
now its using an old hard disk of mine in an old computer. SUCCESS!

wow. didn't thought i would be digging up that old computer haha. it certainly saved the day! woohoo :D

now i am installing windows 7. dunno whether will be able to crack it yet. we shall see after the installation :D

darling. i love you <3

friday

2009-10-03T01:20:00.002+08:00

yay back from class chalet! it was fun! some part of it, until gt some pilots put aeroplane. zzz.

anyway was quite memorable. cos we went to OCH! wow. exciting.. hahah.. dint see any ghost tho.

going to sleep le. tiredd. sleep quite a lot but still tiredd sia.
nid go pei deardear tml. nights..

iloveyou<3

monday

2009-09-28T09:54:00.003+08:00

tml getting money lo!!! woohoo! then can give all the money to deardear. then she dun have to work so hard lurhs >.<

oh yea.. F1 race over le. not that exciting. if only got more crashes. then very fun! haha..

ytd tried to install windows 7 on my desktop. erm. couldnt even install. my desktop didnt have dvd drive. so i tried many patterns. i change my harddisk into a "cd" drive. i tot it could work but then it turned out it did not. instead, i couldnt boot into my normal windows anymore. then i had to reformat it >.< !!! emo. back to xp. tink im gonna get a dvd drive after i get the money! wooo~

thelove<3

wednesday

2009-09-24T01:37:00.002+08:00

today get back results. sians. tinking of which makes me so.. hais. nvm.

today went to sku at 2pm to study for scjp. together with yu they all, "study" le 3 hours. actually is 1 hour eat. half hour decide what to buy to eat. then the rest study. hahaha.. then we manage to finish one chapter! woohoo!

nothing much leh... today darling bad mood.. me oso bad mood. hmmpfx.. sian sian whole day. sian sian whole night.

next week chalet liao! busy week.

tml going to sku again for scjp lesson. hope i can score well got scjp.. very stress. like v hard sio >.<

darling say i ekopwols!!!

okok. finish liao~
mwarks~ darling i love you x333

saturday

2009-09-20T00:12:00.003+08:00

wa. today i realise something i never felt before.
do people know that they should be careful with their words? do you?
because what you say might not be what others might think.
or maybe the way you say it may sound different from the other's perspective?
possibly is because i haven been communicating with people that much for quite long.
the most i have been doing is talking to my computer.
so maybe i have forgotten that point that what i say it must go through my big brain.

i admit that sometimes i say things, i just say it. i dont wanna care how i say it. i just wanna get it over with asap. and that's the point where words can go wrong. even though the idea is there. what are these adults thinking?

well this is the first time it happened to me. have seen it happened with other people before. and i will remember it for quite long.

it was last week. i forgot which day. either tuesday or wednesday. me, my deardear and kheelly was planning to give the ink station guy a visit, at bugis. so on the way, i tot deardear could want a haircut so i decided to give my auntie a visit as she was a hairstylist and beauty salon person. so i brought deardear there and entered and then because i was short of words, and the reason that we hardly spoke, i didnt really found the right words to speak. it was extremely awkward. because deardear dint come in with me, she didnt hear what i said. what i said was :

"Hello. Eh, 你会剪头发吗？我的朋友要剪头发，你可以帮他见吗？"

so maybe something went wrong here. i didnt know until tonight. after they all talked about it, my parents told me on the way home from my grandma hse.
because my first sentence was to ask her whether she knew how to cut, she was dam pissed. in fact, very angry. she told her husband, my uncle, and today everyone know about it, i think. it seems that none of everyone else seemed to bother about this except for her. maybe she dun really noe me? and wad i say sometime can be really off? i dont know what to say anymore. or maybe this isnt the part where she was pissed off. because deardear was shy, she didnt want to cut her hair there. so i turned back in and say sorry, she duwan cut liao. and went off. and i got say BYE BYE ok. maybe she was pissed off about this? whatever is it, i dont wanna care anymore. things will change from now on. i will be more careful with what i say to her. or perhaps i wont even be talking to her.

this thing got me so fan-ed the whole journey home. i was hungry one, but after i heard it i suddenly no appetite. i was like: WTF?! i got nothing more to say.

======

today's been a tiring day. feel sick. my sister oso sick. deardear oso sick. whole day not feeling well.. hais.. why did the flu hit me.. i hate to be sick. everything jus dun feel right. going sleep soon le bahs.

my love for you will never disappear.
pls tell me the same..
iloveyou x3

friday

2009-09-19T00:41:00.004+08:00

today went to yukang house play guitar. deardear follow for a while nia jus to play dog. then she went singing with her FC FRIENDS. then me and yu play guitar the whole day. dam sian de. play so long dint really finish one whole song. our aim was to complete one song, at least. lols. like not easy sias.

after that wanted to go out eat dinner one, but then his mama and papa was eating dinner at chompchomp so they dapao-ed for us. wa. got satay. so nice. lols. from 8+ eat until 9. then go home. wa so late hor. haha. yah.

thats about it. nothing much to say.
feel sick now. i tink going sleep soon.
tml going pei dardar go work. hope she will be happy.

theloves<3

tuesday

2009-09-15T02:32:00.002+08:00

maybe this is the obstacle where that is needed to test the strength of the bond that we have. will the bond be strong enuff to withstand the hit?

im blank.

do u noe u r the most fortunate girl in the world? cos u get such a kind and gentle and nice and handsome and attractive laogong like me. hehehe.. shy.. arent u glad we arent like the others? we never quarreled. i hope we can stay like this forever :D

iloveyou x3
-theunspokened

tuesday

2009-09-09T02:45:00.002+08:00

the time is almost 3am. im still awake. and BLOGGING!
can u believe it. so late liao.
time have changed, i mus adapt to deardear's lifestyle~
gambateh!

today has TKL lunch at japanese resteruant in RiverView Hotel. dam nice place. very high class. eat quite a lot. altho i haven really full, the rest already chui. so must go liao. lols..

after that went to find deardear and dapao my ai xin wu can for deardear :D
and the end.

deardear
iloveyou<3

friday

2009-09-04T17:21:00.003+08:00

today is friday.
went for meeting with TKL. the boss.
tot got very minor things to discuss. but then he brought up so many changes that he want. twice as much as the start of the project. altho got lots of work. he offered more time and more payment. ok bah..

hais. its my first time trying to work and earn money from doing this kind of work. never tried it. always thought it was easy and would earn as much as those normal work out there. like retail or whatsoever. for once i would be earning money for what i enjoy doing. it sucks. it jus makes me have no time for myself. for me to spend with my darling. im so vexed. i shouldnt have took up the project. then i can have the whole holiday to spend. now. too late. if quit now, no money get, teammate will sio. everything gone. zzzz. idk wad to do now.

Dear Kelly,

What should i do?
LOL.

how sia.. how am i going to survive the next sem. when i will be working everyday. no time!!! zzz. will it all fade away? :(

willyoustillloveme?

wednesday

2009-09-03T00:57:00.002+08:00

finalizing the jedi project.
jus sented him.
hope it wont come back again >.<

today went to watch. WHERE GOT GHOST!
its soso only lor. not very nice i felt.
not scary one leh. got a bit lame oso. hahaha.. dunno how deardear so scared about it. lols
so watch le we go shopping and look for jedi's present. not to forget ervins present.
jedi de done le. but we forgot to settle ervin's de. cos duno wad he like. so haven buy. but jus now i sighted one which we might be buying. hahaha.. shall see wad their decisions lo.

tml going running again. hope i improve.. a bit a bit >.< lol..

happy 1year5monthsary my darling~
我爱你1314<3

tuesday

2009-09-02T00:22:00.003+08:00

been busy these few days. projects after projects. its already holiday! zzzz. but its ok. its for the money. its worth it.

doing the APEE competition website. aka. the jedi project. lol. finalising some of the things they want to change. very simple stuff. maybe will finish tonight. not to mention. got another $100!!! hahahaha!!! divide by 3 of cos. hehehe.. money money~ gonna buy deardear things liao :D

tml going to watch movie with everyone! yay~ hope its gonna be fun!

i love you! <3

saturday

2009-08-23T01:25:00.003+08:00

woo. got one hundred~ lols. did a freelance for mr jedi. and fixed back the hole in my pocket =x hehe. only did it halfway, now going to finish the other half. hope got more bonus =x

sian de. nid to work soon. means very hard to see dardar... hais.. wad will i do... hais..

will be so sian.. i duno how le la..

will the distance not pull us apart?

i love you.

will you?

tuesday

2009-08-18T14:35:00.003+08:00

woke up today with a ache on my right leg.

mood -= 1;

time is 11am.

made a bad choice of not going to school.

now everything is so up.

all my fault.

why dint i use my brain?

now its too late.

no need to do my $100 project.

no mood to start.

(U)

im broken.

monday

2009-08-10T21:50:00.003+08:00

happy national day!

happy birthday to my dearest! <3

these are some photo taken on her 19th birthday~

hope darling enjoy everything i planned >.<

the pig.. errr.. diaodiao-ed de :D

free birthday icecream at swensens! :D

at east coast eating wind :D

iloveyou x3

saturday

2009-08-01T21:18:00.002+08:00

woohoo! brcom extend! just when i tot cnt finish le, got extension. phew..

Fri, Jul 31, 2009 -- Assignment 2 Deadline Extended
Good news!

Deadline for assignment 2 is extended to 11 Aug (Tuesday) 1 p.m.

but is till must jiayou wor. must finish doing all the assignments. at home. lols. sick le. must stay at home. cnt go out. i tink i got a part of h1n1 virus. i got h1n2. omgs... ahhhhhhhh. how how! high fever! lols. actually i now ok le la. but still cnt go sku ma... will spread h1n2 to other ppl! >.<

tml my mamma and pappa is going to MY for some relative's wedding. they will only be back on monday.. so must take of myself lor. hahaha.. tml my sis going to cook for me.
wonder if deardear will come =x

ok.. nothing much to tok about. stayed at home the whole day.
see you!

baobei WAN! <3

sunday

2009-07-27T00:23:00.003+08:00

deardear ask me blog! so i blog! :D
nothing much happen today.. jus another boring day. ytd was kinda interesting. haha.
deardear went out with fc friends to celebrate mang guo's bdae~ then someting happen. so exciting. so intense. can feel the heat from deardear and friends. hhaha.. of cos i oso buay song la. did fight a bit. but then the enemy can windwalk de sia. duno how she disappear. next time must really KO her before she run. muahahahah. tink too much. >.<

tml is monday le. another day must work.. wa si bei sian de leh. so envy deardear . ala... nvm. hahahaa.. going off to sleep now.

byebye!
hoping things will come out right tml

iloveyou <3

tuesday

2009-07-21T21:47:00.002+08:00

im going crazy. so many things to do. so little time, like always.

projects i dun care. but then there's a very impt day coming. and i tink i will screw it up like hell. i got no time to prepare and no money to do anything. hais. wad will i do? HEADACHE! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. trying. hard. now how?

doing project again. FUCK LAH.
no mood at all.

friday

2009-07-17T23:02:00.002+08:00

this week passed like so fast! hardly had time for work. altho most of the time im working. seemed like im getting no where. the deadline is coming soon. must really chiong le~~ ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!

today went to buy things with deardear and mango, they were looking for someone's picture over the internet but we were using wireless@sg. SLOW!. settled at mac in jp and tried to find one nice picture out for more than 1 hour. then we decided to get mac for dinner while waiting. hahaa..

after getting it, they went to make something (which looked pretty good in the end xD). nid to wait half hour before the thing can be done. so went off to shop somemore. after that went to collect their "workpiece" lols..

tml is yunyun jiejie's special day! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIYUN! :D (duno if she sees this >.<)

withallmylove,iloveyou <3

friday

2009-07-11T00:12:00.002+08:00

today handed in the final version of my brcom! the fixed one. yesterday my interview, teacher spot me an error. i took one whole night couldnt solve it. but my dear fren ah yu mi took 5 mins and its done. *slap head* me so dumb. aiya so anyway its over. brcom assignment 1 is down! woohoo! now off to brcom assignment 2 and ajp assignment 2 and fyp.. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. SO MANY! omggg...

after handing in, everything went as per normal lor. fyp. do do do. until hin. then continue doing. until 5+. deardear went to meet her fren. pei her till boonlay and wait. then ah neo, a.k.a., mr chong called. saying he has forgotten to return my usb cable for my phone. lols..

so met up with him at JE in a whiles time. so i waited him at JE for A WHILE. not very long. jus around half hour. LOLS.. i knew my stay inside mrt was too long so i went down and went out of the mrt and then came in. lucky got concession. lols.

misses my deardear. did she have fun today? :D
loves <3

monday

2009-07-06T23:22:00.002+08:00

youth day. no holiday for us. sad. lols. its ok. we are all grown up now. all mature le. muahahha. =x

let the fyp begin! time to start on a new journey! must do well cos we are BEHIND TIME! omg omg omg omg omg omg.. panic~~~~~~~ aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... >.<

today deardear fren come look for her. all the bbt fan club. ahahaha..

one of her fren com keep hanging after that. now trying to fix.

good luck~

loves<3

friday

2009-07-03T23:06:00.001+08:00

today is my daddy's birthday! happy birthday daddy! :D
went home early after school to celebrate with him. couldnt pei deardear home. dui bu qi.. >.<
we went to eat eatzi~ mmm yummy~ hahaha..
we bought him a present. altho i jus give them money. =x hahaha..

today handed in one assignment! woots! chiong so long chiong so hard for this one. hope i will do well =]]

im so sorry my darling. im spended so much time on this project that i neglected u for a while.. dui bu qi. *do the sorry face* hope u wont blame me.. >.<

will be alone at home for the next 3 days. lonely..

ilovechew~ <3
will chew stay with me? >.<

sunday

2009-06-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

sunday~ tml start sku! woohoo! can continue with brcom and fyp. wa. count le count. actualy only left a few week. or a few months. omg. can finish fyp ma?! we barely even started. omg. stress!

deardear is going to have her mst on tuesday and friday. she going to study tml. which is monday. can la. she still have 1 day to study. hahaha. u can de my love, jiayou~ :D

dun say i blog very little lines~

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i blog a lot of lines~ :D yipee! hehe..

加油我的宝贝！
我爱你<3

saturday

2009-06-27T23:59:00.002+08:00

woohoo! today watch transformer! shiok man! so nice~ wahahha.. went to watch with yu,tear,soon,khee,elly,lorine and of cos my dear~ altho she dint really like it~ =x thanks for accompanying me my love :D

the movie went boom boom boom~ exciting! wakaka..

the movie was at lido orchard. the cinema was big! i never knew got such cinema in singapore. lols. so many ppl sia.

after the movie we went to eat SLICE at far east. the icecream is so ice. LOL. like nothing i've seen. so soft and melts in the mouth. hahaha.. very creative shop.

then we went to eat dinner on the top floor of far east. just like any other kopitiam haha.

today i managed to mod my psp! now can play isos~ woohoo~ finally.! so happy! hahaa.. today is a happy day.~~

i love you <3

wednesday

2009-06-25T00:59:00.003+08:00

chionging brcom in school today. tired like mad. everyone asking me thing. in the end im lacking behind. tho i couldnt help much cos i haven really finish my project. wa siao one.. like solo project sia.. my partner.. =x aiyo...

haha. reach home continue with brcom. everything is now brcom. lols.. sibei sian de.. hope to faster finish then can chiong fyp.

!!!! when then can rest?!?!?!?! zzzzz.

deardear today went her fren hse enjoy life~ hahaha.. hope she's having fun hanging out with her FC frens. and still thinking of me x.x cos i miss her.........

thinking about the first time... oh 第一次 wo~

lols.. such sweet memories. time has changed. must treasure what i have now.

lovesx3

doyou?

sunday

2009-06-21T22:05:00.009+08:00

happy father's day daddy~ :D
today is fathers day. i dint know until yesterday. =x lols..

darling ask me to blog~ sho fierce x.x

zzzz. so many lines gone. cos i used the arrow bracket. lols.. dun rmb wad i write liao. zzz.
many things to be left unspoken.
trying to help but not its not helping.
the world is changing..

but my love for u will never change. will yours?

iloveyou<3

thursday

2009-06-18T23:06:00.002+08:00

yay! today deardear come my house again! got another meet the parents session! hehe. shy. deardear was so shy sia! ppl all come look at euh. hehe.. my darling so pretty. of cos uh :D

today kheelly plus ah yu plus deardear come my house. starting was playing guitar with ahyu. then we went to running~ must train for nafa~ today ran so slow. 15.34 >.< walk quite a bit.

after that kheelly plus ahyu went home le. left deardear~ we shy shy de went eat dinner. hahaha.. deardear sho scared seh. ahhaha.. its ok. i understand. cos if it was me. i sure even more hum T.T

after that pei darling walk to mrt to see her off.. >.<

wa tiredd seh. not feeling well still. tink going to sleep early today hope can recover. >.<

wooooo aaaaiiiiiii nniiiii <3

sunday

2009-06-14T23:31:00.002+08:00

yay! today deardear came my house! woohoo~ with all my relatives here~ well not all! but hey! my deardear is so brave~ mwarks~ <3

deardear made frens with my 3 little cousins haha.. they love her very much. all crowding around her and on her. fighting to sit on her lap~ i took a picture of that. but duwan upload. hahah.. deardear shy~

hang around at my house for long long. teaching the kids to play game. haha.. dear can be mum le~ =x

so many things happen today. but cant rmb liao. i only rmb that deardear loves me very much. and i loves her very much too <3 hehe. shy.

after that sent deardear home by walking her to mrt~ then i took bus home. the bus took dam long to come as usual. suay sia.. hahaha..

deardear tml going to sing song~ woots! jiayous my girl!~ become big star le dun forget me oh! >.<

ilovemydearestbaobeiandiwillneverletyougo<3

thursday

2009-06-12T00:33:00.002+08:00

today got PT dinner with supervisors. mr chong and jedi. they both got 2 teams.
4 of the teams went to eat pastamania at cineleisure. lols. so many ppl squeeze small pastamania.

had so much problem ordering food. lol sia. we wrote all our orders on a piece of paper and then gave the paper to the cashier. she took so long to finally figure out our orders. poor thing. hahaha.. the ppl behind had to wait.

from the start of when we meet, till the time when we part, got ppl keep fan-ing me! omgs. they keep harbing me! LOL. they will go like :

"HUH! Yiming wan go harbing ah! 一起 la!"

then i will be there =.= zzz... i duwan! LOL.

non stop de lehs. lols! so after dinner we took photo and then stand there for quite long. not very very long la. after a while. walk towards a direction then stop. then stop for quite long. not very very long la. after a while, we took escaltor to 1st floor, then stand outside cine and stop for quite long. but yet not very very long la. then we finally decide to go upstairs play pool. LOL.

so the total time taken to decide on playing pool is (not very very long) X 3. LOL. omg time wasting.

then blah blah blah play pool. play for i tink almost 2 hours. omg. then the pool place got a lot of china ppl. LOL. i dint noe singapore so many china ppl. then they wear until nice nice sia. compared to singapore. singaporeans suibian de la. LOL. one look can tell they not from SG.

then after finish out pool session, we paid up and at the counter got one futsol machine. LOL. then we play until super high la! play 3 rounds. 3 person one side sia. omg. shout dam loud lol! hahaha. and thats the highest part of the day. then its go home time.

sian-ed. deardear dint join us. everybody asking. >.< emo emo.
jiu zhe yang lo. hope deardear missed me a lot. >.<

woaini, yongyuanaizheni <3

sunday

2009-06-08T00:46:00.003+08:00

today is sunday.
resting at home day.
today my dad bought back a new chair. haha. for his room. they went ikea shop. then me and my dad fixed the chair together. lols. long time since we did something together. lols. so anyway, the old chair was spoiling so we got a new one.

then we went for dinner to "celebrate" my sister's birthday which was last week. LOL. she wan to postpone cos she couldnt make it last week. lao mew.

nothing much to say today. tml going to sku do project. woohoo! haha.. duno is go there do project or play =x whoops.

this few days deardear busy having fun with her BBT~ LOL. (bukit batok =x). hahaah.. hope she is enjoying and having fun with her clubmates.
hope she still tinks of me once in a while maybe? >.<
confused. dont know what im feeling now.
theLOVE<3

friday

2009-06-06T01:32:00.003+08:00

friday le. last day of sku for this term. holiday for 3 weeks. but i tink this 3 weeks will be kinda busy.

deardear ask me blog so i blog =]]

jus now eat KFC with deardear. er ren shi jie ((: so lowmantic. :D hehe shy.

today started dragonica. lols. fun sia. with so many frens playing together. haha..

today nothing to write. tiredd le >.<

thelove<3

wednesday

2009-06-03T23:39:00.002+08:00

waa deardear let me dota! :D:D:D:D:D:D so happiiee! :D wakakkaa.. u r the best dear ever~ !! mwarks mwarks mwarks~ <3

hehe.. HAPPY 1-YEAR-2-MONTH-VASARY my dear! :D its been a long way now. hope it will go longer! :D

today we went to eat gelare~the icecream one. lols. cos we still had this $10 gelare voucher. (IS DEARDEAR's ONE). so we i jus decided to go to the outlet at dhoby ghaut. we walk walk around and finally settled down to eat the amazingly filling pasta. omg. i was so full i almost vomit. altho i dint eat much o.O must be the creamy sauce which fills up the stomach. hehe.. so we ate le then so full, dint order icecream. altho we wanted to eat icecream in the first place. lucky haven order. lols.

after that we went arcade see see. played bashi bishi. and i win deardear! wakakakakaka.. woohoo~ high~ hehehehehe.. secret training. *oops* =x

tml going to have lots of activities~ woohoo! sounds fun :D
alright. see u tml~ :D

iloveyou my dear!
stay strong!
i'll be with u forever! <3

sunday

2009-06-01T00:37:00.004+08:00

today went to the P.B-ers outing! altho i wasn't a P.B-er. dear ask me go then i jiu go lor. hahaha.. intending to let them have their "fully P.B-ers outing" but since not many could make it, i'll jus fill up for the missing ones. haha.. like mango said. one table at seoul garden is 4 ppl. 7 ppl canot share 2 tables. nid 8 ppl. LOL.

before that went to orchard wisma atria to fix deardear's phone. so fast spoil de lehs. lols.but then 2 more days can get it back. pretty fast. hope it will be back to tip top condition.

went bugis after that , ate tako-balls and had bubble tea ! (: slacked at arcade while waiting for p.b-ers to arrive. luckily not that awkward. cos i not from their gang. got deardear there to pei me :D

well. finish off here. going to get some sleep~
stupid sore throat and upcoming ulcer. hais..

iloveyou!ILOVEYOU!<3

saturday

2009-05-31T01:10:00.002+08:00

im blogging~~ :D

darling ask me to blog. >.<

*wave* YUU HUU! when u going to blog? :((

today went to my ah ma house like everyweek. nothing unusual happen.

today i found a new iphone game. very much like taptap revenge. its dam fun. can upload ur own songs and play them! lols.

hmm wad else.

today played blackshot online. new game~ like CS. the graphic nicer. lols. then play until i feel so uncomfortable. wanna vomit >.<>

tml going to orchard fix phone with deardear :D yay~ finally~ hahaha..

her phone getting sot-er and sot-er. nid bring it go see doctor.

tml morning promise my sister will wake up at 7+ go eat mac breakfast with my mum and dad. cos tml is her birthday. hope can wake up. and hope that we going to eat. hais.. cos my daddy in bad mood.

hais.. when ppl bad mood, i will get affected too.. duno why..

today my dad wasnt in good mood on the way home... i dun like this feeling.. cos i scared something will go wrong. pls make things good again :((

love always x3

wednesday

2009-05-27T22:07:00.002+08:00

what a day. tot will be very busy. tot i planned everything out.

but turned out totally different. things happen. cant predict the future..

presentation is coming. the end of phase 1 is here. but i haven prepared at all. die la.. see other ppl present so well. i feel like shit. hope i will do well with jus 1 day of preparation.

tml dunno got go running or not. i wanna train up for 2.4! but oso nid do powerpoint presentation. see how lor.

nothing much to say today. still waiting for deardear to blog. :D

i wanna go back to the past.

what is happening? everything's changing.

i dont know what to do. ):

iloveyounomatterwhat.

staywithmewithyou? please?

monday

2009-05-25T19:19:00.002+08:00

weee! deardear finally back from malaysia! welcome home sweetheart~ :D miss her so muchie!! hope she miss me the same way as well >.< she is on the way home now~ ask the bus driver faster lahs! T.T

been off lately. couldnt hear ur voice for 3 days. waaaa.. very sian de lehs..
going home didnt felt like it was supposed to. sigh. oh wells. darling is back~ xD

last friday went to watch night at the museum 2. it was dam funny. deardear was laughing her head off. hahahaha.. they movie was pretty good too. haha.

this may is horrigible terrigible vegetable la. really hope all the bad things would fly away. wish i could go back to the past.

got assignment dueing this sunday. duno whether we will be able to make it or not..
wa today.. our lecturer sio sia! jedi was dam angry. i first time see he so angry. everyone in class tio chua. he was teaching lesson and then we didnt make any noise. we were jus there doing his assignment. then he got so angry. omgs.. duno how to explain. really stun tio. lols..

alright. waiting for deardear to online! sians.. deardear never reply me.. i so boring now.

willthedifferencesmakeusstronger?
nomatterwhat,iloveyou<3
andi'llbethereforyou((:

thursday

2009-05-22T01:11:00.003+08:00

feel so guilty.
report for fyp is done. but wad have i done?
got over 100+ pages. maybe i jus got 2 or 3 pages? sigh.
leader so lousy wan.. >.<
tml handing in the report.
phase 1 is over.
going to celebrate~ hope so =x

play dota in house today.
i play like shit.
3 round all 3 rounds lose.
i becoming more and more noob.
too long no have play like this le..
lost the touch. >.<

so anyway. today is running day~
my 2.4 was pretty good! 14.36! woots~
improve by another minute! :D happy sio~
hope next week will be even better~ wahaha..

going off the sleep soon.
the ulcer has been there for so long man.
is it becos i sleep late every night?
i wish there was a kind of medicine to make me never have any ulcer again so i can smile and talk normally. sigh.. i talk funny funny now. lols..

going off to sleep~ sku tml.

iloveyou baby. ((:
staywithmewillyou? <3

wednesday

2009-05-21T00:24:00.002+08:00

another short day at sku. do nothing much then go home liao.
went jp with deardear kheelly and mangguo. wa shop super long. lols.

sigh. i feel like shit. why do i always have ulcer?
how come other ppl dun have it de? when its here. it always brings down my mood.
from supposed to be very happy become very sian.
i cant smile. it hurts when i does that. so i only can keep quiet lor. hope it faster heal. hais.. hope darling dun blame me.. ):

im tiredd.. dunno wad i did. but i feel so tiredd.
tml going running again. going to be tiredd-er

going off liao.
going to cor my deardear <3

staymybaby,
iloveyou<3

monday

2009-05-18T23:24:00.002+08:00

deardear~ 我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！我爱你！ x1000000

so dont worry so much! :D cos my love for u will never end. <3

today deardear dint go school! sobs! her ankle sprain. ouchie.. so pain >.< poor dearling~ i mis u so much.
even tho u're not here, u feel so close to me. cos u r right inside my heart. x= shy.

haha. anyway. today everybody ask sio.. why deardear never come. everyone miss u so much. but no one misses u as much as me. this morning my AL asked me whether i shld chop space for her. but she not going today.. emo.. waaa. deardear one day dun come nia. my life so much havoc T.T

omg omg omg!! ytd night took a ride in deardear's daddy's car! ALONE! omg..!! like taking exam liddat! wa sio sia. her daddy ask me questions. i answer them. like question and answer game. omg... so scary >.< but then he was very friendly. hahaha.. phew.. =x

darling darling!
I LOVE YOU. <33
DONCH U THINK OTHERWISE! =[

爱爱爱你！！！

thursday

2009-05-14T23:52:00.002+08:00

today is thursday. the 14 of MAY! omg.
14 days liao. deardear no blog. T.T

so anyway. today is running day again. with the jedi running club. haha.. as usual we ran 2.4 and i was the last few. haha..
deardear couldnt run with us today. sian.
oh wells. after running we went to have dinner at bukit timah. jedi introduced us to this korean restaurant. the food was not bad. the price was pretty good. and they served us appetizers. not jus like the normal peanuts. like more than 10 plates of korean appetizers? and its all free.! hahaha..

i ate the bbq chicken set meal. like those normal food court korean selling hotplate chicken de those kind lor. with rice of cause. everything for $7. cheap sia! lol.

and then it comes the time for bill. cos i only had $5, jedi say he will subsidise for everyone. everyone only nid pay 5 dollar. but then we gave him extra. cos some dint have $5. then heres come the funny part. he dint wan to keep those extra. so he faster put on the table and wan zao liao. LOL. in the end nobody take. then we take and squeeze it into jedi's bag. i tink~ cos i dint see. after that. jedi was trying to return us the money. we were like trying to get away from him. hahahaha.. it was dam funny. siaming the whole way until we parted for different bus stops. LOL.
a very cool experience with jedi. hahaha.

deardear using qvod le! yay! she can dl all the show she wan. hahaha.. so happy! :D

iloveyou<3
doyou?

sunday

2009-05-10T23:48:00.001+08:00

tml start sku le yay~
start work! :D
jiayous my dear.

woaini <3

friday

2009-05-09T00:19:00.003+08:00

TGIF! finally can rest. very headache week. also known as the sick week. lols. the virus spread to alot of ppl. haha..

wa today is save money day! 2 ppl dinner $3 nia! woohoo! achievement! wakaka. nid to save up :D

omg. today take bus make me so pek chek. zzz..
the busstop has 169, 858, 965, and 969. 4 buses.
the bus i had to take was 169.

when i reach the bustop. 1 969 jus left. then got 965.
969>965>858>969>965>858>969 then finally got one 169! WTH~
make me wait so long! wait until even deardear call me~ T.T

so anyway.. trying to dl the dragonica now. new game. but the speed is dam slow. tink gonna try again tml bah.. >.<

the sweet sweet love <3
i love you !! =]

sunday

2009-05-04T00:16:00.001+08:00

today is another very important day!
HAPPY 1 YEAR PLUS 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY MY DEAR! <3
loves as much as always! and hope we stay strong! :D
stay with me will you? xD

friday

2009-05-02T00:59:00.003+08:00

BLOG! deardear ask me to BLOG! hahaha.. here i am~

today i labour day! happy labour day. hahaha~
today went to my auntie house to eat prawn mee~ very nice.. mm yummy. haha.. wasted deardear wasnt there . everyone kept asking me. ur girlfren not free ah? >.< shy lehs =x

stay at her house until quite late. around 8 plus. then we all went to eat dinner at airport. LOL. ya. why airport? i oso duno. i tink cos near mah. since everyone got car. hahaha. then we relax relax at airport's foodcourt. the new one. terminal 3. after that auntie say wan go drink kopi. haha.. went to the kiliney kopishop. haha.. drink drink slack slack then went home.~ and oh ya! we took the sky train. so fun. hahaha..

ok thats all for today~
and ytd forget to blog about our train journey home. on the train home, me and deardear got attacked by the beer-throwing-monster! ahhhh.. that bangla basket one! drink so much beer then vomit on the train. right in front of where i sitting.! omg! suay la. once he puke, the whole area clear sia. everyone zao. LOL. it was pretty funny tho =x

must end my post! dear fierce liao! =[[
*EDIT* dear dint fierce at me :D

loves my dear <3
when i say forever, i mean it.
iloveyou forever.

wednesday

2009-04-29T23:43:00.002+08:00

so fast 1 and a half weeek pass le! omg. our fyp like nv do anything.. hais.. i feel like so failure.. lousy leader duno how to lead my own group. skali even make them fail. how sia..

will i be a good leader? :(

im waiting for deardear to blog~~~~~~ so long since she blog! like 10 years liao omg..
im still waiting!! <---LOOK

lols..

tml going running! with jedi running club. hahaha.. hope everyweek deardear will run with us! must exercise le! :D

loves <3
p.s.: im still waiting =p

tuesday

2009-04-28T21:47:00.002+08:00

blog !
deardear say blog. so i mus blog lor. :D
wad to blog neh?
sian de..

project is starting. with all the UML things. and especially report writing. wth.. i hate it. it's so confusing.
my client is so buay steady. i tink he will be changing his mind on the design a lot. like jedi said.
means we need to do our coding. but at the same time dun do it too well. cos he might suddenly change his mind about it. then must recode again lols.. sian.

we have so many things unclear about this project. so hard for us to actually start.
headache.. use case diagram how to draw? database how to design? waa gg..

waiting for deardear to blog ><

loves my dearest darling<3
stay with me will u?

monday

2009-04-27T23:00:00.002+08:00

deardear ask me free jiu blog.
so i blogging! hahaaa..
today went for school meet the client for my fyp.
was stress at first.
but after meet him. waaa. relac sia.
he wasnt really interested about the project.
he very interested in einstein's quiz and sudoku. LOL sia.
spend half the meeting time toking about the quizs.
dot dot dot..
i tink even our supervisor oso stun! hahaha..

after that go back and slack slack in class.

after school went clementi arcade. supposed to catch toy but deardear dint like any. so we went to lot 1 to eat pepper lunch. then i accidentally remind deardear upstairs got arcade. OOPS! hahaha..
after that spent $6 to catch a pretty cute stitch for deardear <3 ahaha.. hope she likes it ><

then sent deardear home~

loves her lots :)
a lot, really. <3

sunday

2009-04-26T21:39:00.002+08:00

dear ask me to blog! so i blogging!
today deardear play cs with me! first time! wa.. so happy.. altho is anyhow play de. haha..
make deardear laugh.. hehe.. hope u keep laughing everyday. then ppl on mrt will stare at u. =x wakaka..

tml monday liao.
tml meet CEO of NTUC income! sound so big! woooo.
cold sweat.

ok. tml going to sku buy 2.5$ mac bfast for dear :D
爱心早餐 :D

thelove<3
woaini

friday

2009-04-24T22:56:00.002+08:00

woo. another slacking school day.
slack in sku until 2pm. then had to go off to see dentist.
deardear went with me!! :D so happy xD

the next visit to the dentist will be the last! weehoo!
means no more braces. wahaha!
so fast 2 years le wor.. hmm..
times flies when im with u *shy*

deardear made a tshirt for me! deardear is so sweet~ kisses~ finally we have a real couple tee >< and it is the most priceless couple tee in the world. cos u cant buy it anywhere else. =]]

after that went khee house play maple and slack till 6pm.
then went deardear's papa house to take some envelope and money.
then went deardear's mama hse to put down bag and do some stuff for her mum~
then went boonlay eat deardear's favourite small bowl noodle :D

waaa. lol. like been to so many places today. hehe

to love someone, is to fall in love with the same person over and over again
iloveyou <3

sunday

2009-04-12T23:10:00.002+08:00

hi. nothing to do. so came here and sit down drink tea.
finding a new private maple server to play with deardear, must have wedding. haha..
now waiting for the page to load. slow slow slow~~

ahhh.. deardear's mummy kpkb le. duno for wad reason. she cant get to use her com.. im toking to her on the phone!! :D hehehe.. love it everytime =x shy~

hahah.. this reminds me of the first time i talked to her on the phone. at night! hahah.. memories..

ahhh.last week jiu school reopen le. so fast! i set target before holiday start i going to gym! but now haven even go once! omg!!!! nid to buck up liao. if not NS sure chui ah!

last month phone bill CHIBABOOM.this month going to CHIBABOOM even more. jialat.. stupid iphone. never ask permission jiu connect grps. dumb phone. LOL. went to cancel the gprs le. hope the bill wont chibaboon anymore. emo... daddy wasnt very happy.. i must save back the money and pay him back!! =]

lovesyounomatterhow<3

thursday

2009-04-09T22:47:00.002+08:00

camp's over! weehoo!
back after a 4 day camp in sku.
waaa dam shiok.
never could enjoy like this before
last time is work work work
now is all eye power. hahaah..

but too bad dint get as high as i could
stupid fishing ulcers. hais..
they pop out on the first day of the camp.
dam it. got so suay de la.
the previous camp oso same. wth..
make me really lose my mood.
turn into sian sian emo boy. zzz

oh well. when i reach home. i super bth liao. i took listerine and wash my whole mouth
it was sooooo pain. but shiok.
now the ulcers become numb le. no pain. for a while only. lol

so anyway, about the camp
me and deardear stayed the full 4 days there rotting. lol
there wasnt much to do as a senior
all is the junior in charge. haha
there was nightwalk as usual. and deardear went together with us! omg! can u believe it?! hahahahaha..
we had fun scaring people, right dear? :D

the 2nd day was boring.
and so was the 3rd.
until the last night, it was dam fun.
i liked the way the disco night started.
so cool. ahaha..
too bad i not high de. >.< i so low..
apple bottom jing jing..~

kk. off to find deardear in audi. cos she never reply me in msn >.<

iloveyou <3
staywithmewillyou?

friday

2009-04-03T23:43:00.002+08:00

TODAY!
THE 3RD OF APRIL!
IS A VERY BIG DAY!
WITHOUT TODAY,
THERE WOULDNT BE US!

HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY MY BELOVED!

today met deardear at 1pm at orchard to eat suki sushi! omg. buffet lunch siol. hahahaa.. eat until sio. dont know why, both our appetite today isnt tat good. we didnt eat as much as we ate the previous time we went.

so anyway. we eat lots of thing. and then deardear cnt finish eating the longlong mushroom wrapped with bacon. omg.. all push to me eat. >.< hahaha.. it was too oily. so eat one = eat a lot liao. make the stomach weird weird de. so anyway. we decided to "eat" some of the remaining longlong mushroom wrapped with bacon. HAHAHAHA.. =x

after that we had lots of thing. i order nama ebi sashimi thinking that it would be delicious. then omg. i regretted it. taste like.. YUCK! hahaha.. luckily there was hot water there. then u noe.. i use the hot water like steamboat. cook the prawn then eat. =x WAKAKA..

we finished off with lots of fruits and ebi fried. ahh.. ebi fried is the best thing there liao. first. it is cooked. and it is nice with mayonise~ hahaha... deardear ate 2 plates of fruits hahaha.. so healthy oh~ :D

during the whole thing, deardear took some funny photos. too bad my phone camera sucks. if not i will take a lot of her photo! >.<

after that we went back to deardear's house to play steps! its a new online dancing game. the gameplay is similiar to audition. in fact. it is exactly like audition! copycat! haha.. jus that got quest and quite complicating. it was pretty cool though. so anyway. stay at her house until dinner time, then we go eat dinner. after that come back play~ went home at around 10. reached home at around 11.30.

and then its the end.

once again happy 1yearversary my dear.
hope we will stay together forever.
and then we will have 100yearversary. =]]
iloveyou <3

wednesday

2009-04-02T00:40:00.002+08:00

today is a boring day.
stay at home the whole day.
first half of the day was playing audition with deardear~
play until she sian le. hahaha..
her mei is powderful de ok.
duno how she can tahan.
haha.. maybe its becos she jus got her new com?
sooner or later she will be tired of it le. =p

wa today restaurant city got maintainence.
so long man.
cant get to serve customers. haha
till now still down.
sadded.

after that deardear let me go play cs! weee~
hahaha..
she went audi play..
but i hope deardear wont be angry =[[

2 more days TNL! (to next level)
wakakaa..

i love you. <3
stay with me will you?

tuesday

2009-03-31T09:46:00.002+08:00

i didn't cry.
i was more in the state of shock.
i have no idea what was going on.
it was me who was too sensitive.
im sorry dear.
it wont happen again. i promise.

sunday

2009-03-29T23:42:00.002+08:00

wooo! sunday! another week has passed. fast.. haha..

today went to find deardear to meet up with her friends.
sit at the duno wad cafe for one hours plus then decided to go off to queensway! (again)
omg.. the laksa. and the curry chicken. ho seh man..
tinking of it. im hungry now! waaaaa.. the shiokness is undescribable. omg..
ahahaha.. as usual after that went to play arcade. sorry deardear.. make u cnt diao dao that bearbear >.<
after that play the gunbullet. hahaha.. play until so high. so fun! =]]

after that went back home with deardear. deardear sleep the whole bus journey. hahaha.. deardear so ke ai when sleeping =x *shy*

iloveyou my dear.
我对不起你。 =[[

friday

2009-03-27T22:11:00.002+08:00

today is a happy day~~

altho deardear's appeal for computer loan failed, but she rented a new laptop from school at only 120$$$!!! :D so cheap uh! for one year somemore. omg..
deardear can play her audi and her new game steps liao~ wahaha..

today deardear got her hands onto her new PSP with her favourite game DJMAX!wooo! see the name oso song ah! ahhaha..

deardear today very happy hor? hahaha...
hope u stay happy like this always. =]]

im born to make u happy,
loves <3

tuesday

2009-03-24T22:51:00.002+08:00

dear god. give me a break.
im so fucked up right now.
i wish i dint win the fucking iphone so i would still be using my old phone.
why must all these happen.

ahhhhhhhhhh

why me?!!!!!

there are so many things happening right at this moment. im really gonna blow it.

i wanna tok to somebody... can i throw my temper?

i wish.. i wish...

monday

2009-03-23T23:55:00.001+08:00

辛苦你了，我的爱。

我爱你。<3

sunday

2009-03-22T10:49:00.003+08:00

wow. so busy these few days. today is the 22th of march.
2 days ago was my birthday. had a bbq at my house and invite many ppl. woo. sounded fun.
the bbq turned out to be a disaster. omg..
almost half way thru.. the fire went out.. cos i forgot to add charcoal. wa liew.. then we took the entire night to light up again. becos it took too long.. everyone couldnt eat anything. so sorry guys.. had to make everyone wait and wait.. after that some had to leave.. sibei paiseh lahs..

deardear gave me a surprise present! haha.. love it so much~ thanks my dear <3
now im trying to make it work. seemed like getting bluffed. cant play any games yet. sigh. think im giving up soon... tink that my version cant be modified or something. sadded. but one day it will work! haha. i will make it work! cos its a gift from deardear :D

so after the bbq. deardear and mango and her husband stayed over at my house play cards. then we watch the eye 10, the horror movie. deardear so scared lurhs. after a while jiu duwan watch. then she fell asleep. haha.. after watching the movie. mango and her husband decided to take the first bus home. then i could sleep! finally! wahaha.. sleep till like 1pm.. but still dam tired.

the next afternoon, deardear and i decided to go back to simlim find the same uncle which sold her the psp. the uncle told us to wad.. change the iso to pbp. duno wth he toking about. after reading a website. i realise we are 75% conned.

http://mypspstuffandmore.blogspot.com/2009/01/how-scammers-pass-their-psp-as-modified.html

the version is 4.01. it is said that it isnt modified at all. what deardear tried out at his shop that day was a demo. so it is playable on a non-modified version of a psp. alamaks. headache. if the psp canot modify how sial. omg..

aiya heck care. we went to bugis with khee and yun. we went simlim together too. after that we eat pastamania. khee dint come with us, he going home for dinner. haha.. thanks for coming with us khee. we eat the pasta until.. face green green. haha. so full sia.. i didnt finish my pasta >.<

after eating, we went back to jurong point to shopshop. deardear and yunyun walk like the whole jp sia haha.. then finally bought one necklace thing. haha.. walk until 9.30, we say byebye to yunyun and i walk deardear home :D

at her house. she give me eat 2 panadol for my cold. haha. thanks deardear. i feel much better now. =]]

i reach home at around 11+. my parents told me that the letter is here! the letter for the first prize iphone 3g from singtel. haha.. it comes with a 2yr contract and new line and its all free! not sure when i will be going to get it yet but hurray!

this has gotta be the 2nd happiest birthday in my life!
why 2nd? cos the first birthday was the happiest one. why? cos i was brought into this world! and i made this world a better place! mwahahaha~ =x

iloveyou my dear. thanks for everything. you are the best. <3
mwarks.

22nd March Part 2

ok im back again. just now went to somerset there to collect my iphone! well was supposed to but then. we went too early. the stock haven come in yet. haha.. too kanchiong~~

anyway was waiting for my sister to come, i went to the skate park and watch ppl skate. woo woo woo. like so fun sia.. so many tricks. like playing game like that. haha.. i wan skating game on my psp! :x

and then comes the headache.. whether or not to use the iphone. if i use it, i might have to change my number. and the worse thing is.. me and deardear and couple phone going to be different le.. hais.. tot can be the same.. so nice.. my sister keep asking me to use the iphone so she can use my current phone. lol.. so wad shld i do neh?!!! no phone headache. now got phone oso headache. alamaks... how to save enuff money for deardear nehs.. sigh..

after that went to orchard shop shop lor. shop le nevr buy anything de. haha.. then eat dinner at centerpoint and then balek kampong.

tml going to call the simlim sqaure con man again. make sure he fix it. or else deardear's money will go to waste. basket. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. hope tml my psp can play le >.<

thank you dear. for being with me always.
i love you with all my heart
loves <3

wednesday

2009-03-18T19:13:00.002+08:00

the results are out! finally! did quite well. but then.. dint reach deardear's target.. >.< ahah.. but jus 0.1 less only ma. not bad la hor xD

haha.. duno is qiao or wad. i dreamt i got 3.7 last week! omg.. and it did come true. hahaha.. waaa. next time i must dream of 4.0~ muhahahaha..

deardear got super ultra wonderfully good results! so proud of her~ wakaka.. improved so bloody much~ next sem she gonna get 3.5.... or else..... *evil face* xD

haha. so many happy things happen today! the singtel ppl called me this morning about my iphone! wahahahahahha! happy nurse! XD finally can get my free iphone~ wooohoo!

2 more days to my birdday bbq. very scared.. skali very unsuccessful =[[ skali nobody wan to come.. wa then i sian.. hope everybody come and have fun >.<

ilu (:

sunday

2009-03-15T23:13:00.003+08:00

today went to cineleisure to eat bu fei! of cos is with deardear haha..
and then so many things happen after that.
went suntec to IT show again.
squeeze like wad liddat. last day so many ppl. the things so cheap. sadded. if only i got money...
after that went to arcade and play. dint spend a lot of money today. haha..
dint really have much to play.
then met with... dear's... friend...
after that took bus to dear's cousin house for dinner. her mummy was there.. >.<

after that they went home on cab.
me take bus home. >.<

after reaching yishun, dint feel like taking the bus home.
instead i walked home. wanted to chill out.
got so many things to think about.
so many things on my mind.

nothing was here

iloveyou my dear. pls dont leave me.. =[[

thursday

2009-03-13T01:08:00.002+08:00

today went to fix my com. it was so noisy! now its so quiet omg! haha..
went to IT Show and squeeze while waiting for my com to be ready.

after that went home and deardear cook dinner for us! omg! so nice hahaha!
deardear so pro de. =]]

after that send deardear home after that went to fetch my sister home. omg. reach home so late. hahaha..

now hoping can play game >.<

iloveyoux3

thursday

2009-03-12T00:46:00.003+08:00

today went to deardear house help her install new monitor! haha.. not really new. but its useful ok! deardear's lappy got into a terrible accident and suddenly couldnt show anything on the screen anymore. sigh. wad a pity. so i decided to use an external monitor for the laptop. so at least deardear can still use her lappy. so smart ah me? xD

then got see deardear's daddy. omg.. so scary. =x lucky he dint say anything. omg.. wakakaka.. after that went to have dinner with deardear.

then went home. before that went to fetch my sister at woodlands. then took bus home.

reach home. haven bathe. deardear ask me look for converter to convert video to gif. then i did find it. after that gave deardear the tool to cut videos. then deardear very happy. haha..

today is a happy day! help deardear so many things ohh? >.< owaes ="">

tml deardear going with me service my com. and then cooking dinner for our family of four! wakaka :D

iloveyou. x3

plsdontletgo. =[[

tuesday

2009-03-03T22:21:00.003+08:00

today is the 3rd of march.

today is a happy day.

today is our 11th month anniversary! weeheehee! :D:D

1 more month only! then we will be 1 year old. wakaka. cant wait.. =]]

today went to "celebrate" our anniversary with deardear at... JP! lol. where else. hahah.. we watched BARLEY AND ME. mmm so nice. taste like barley. =xx lol.. the show ah.. very bad. keep touching my head and my hand and my leg. very touchy uhh.. hahaha..

after that we went down to "try" and avoid deardear's mother. but so qiao. they all at mac. waaaa.. lol.. haven come the worse part yet.. so we say hello and then deardear went to use pen draw money. after dat we figuring out wad to eat. then deardear want to eat mac. so mac it shall be.

so we went back there. and tio own by 2 salesman and woman. deardear got summoned by her mum to that woman. then i got talkcock-ed by the man. what is he blabbering about? what are the words coming out of his mouth. omg.. so geng ah! ahaa.. tok .. tok.. tok.. wad business sai. lol. wad management ah.. i dun care man. suay de lorhs.. haha.. but heck care la. got to eat mac anyway.

eat liao then walk home with deardear (together with her mummy and sista).

and thats the end of our story.

loves u lots lots.

mwarks mwarks mwarks <3

wednesday

2009-02-26T00:15:00.002+08:00

1st day after exam. game the whole day. well. half the day. first half was going to dentist for my appointment. second half is gaming!

playing this new game called destiny online. jus started today with deardear. altho it is super messy. make me headache. it was quite fun. especially when the pet kills everything for u. haha.

nothing to blog! dear waiting for me to go back into DO~ kk. here i go~

mwarks ilu x3

tuesday

2009-02-24T19:26:00.002+08:00

wohooo! last paper finish! no more! habis! hahahahaha. happy! can play liao~ woooo~

today went to queensway play toy catching with deardear plus ahly. LOL! hahaha.. catch quite a few. but sad la. those nice nice one below. on top one all so ugly.. sadded. make deardear sho sad >.<

walk walk sit sit at mac. then slack and do nothing for a while then decided to go home. lols.. went JP with deardear. went arcade scan for toys she like. but dun have leh. either dun like or too hard >.<>

then i reach home 6pm. haha.. jus had dinner.. mmm.. long time no eat my mum cook de food. so yummy.. wakaka.. =x

kk finish off le. go play game time! =xx hehe..

iloveyouOWAES! x3